I just now realized I had another blog post to do and now that I've talked about everything I wanted to talk about in the class I'm stuck.

OH: Shout out to Mr.Stephens for being one of the nicest teachers I've ever had. I feel bad for not being so great at his class even though I do try and I'm glad he's so understanding when I had to constantly call him over for help on Jeroo (it's like you get it when it's explained to you and you move on and then nothing makes sense anymore?).

Next semester I'm going to try to be a better student.

Of course I always say that.

But, I can always try a little bit harder.

I don't know.

It's winter break though and I have Breaking Bad to start and finish by the time school starts back up again.

And I'm kind of excited.



Oh yeah and Christmas. That's a plus.

I hope you have a good break as well.

OK. COMPUTER PROGRAMMING THOUGh
Even though it turned out to be more stressful than I thought it would be, I did enjoy it this semester. Yes, it got a lot harder towards the end and I tried to keep up, but you can't win everything, or be good at anything I guess is what I'm trying to get at.
And my dad has been so excited that I'm taking a class that has to do with what he really likes, so he asks me about it all the time and always wants to know what we are doing and I'm glad he's taken an interest in a class I'm taking at school but it isn't something I want to pursue, and I don't know if he realizes that?? That was a run on sentence sorry.
I do wish I was a pro at coding though, because recently I've been working more on my tumblr and changing my HTML around a little bit and I like having that control over it, knowing if I don't like something I can change it around a bit until I do. I just want to be better at, but maybe one day.
Things I'm trying to learn, and I'll probably try to teach myself some more photoshop over the break.

WELL, it's been a really stressful last couple of weeks. My parents have been on me about passing all my classes (which is sad that it's actually gotten to this point to begin with) and I've been freaking out making sure that I can at least get my grades under control for right now (and with colleges checking my transcripts) IT'S BEEN HECTIC to say the least.

I REALLY tried to do well on my computer programming final too and I thought I could do it because I had figured out the other lab one's but when I opened it up, I tried everything I could think of to do and nothing worked. I even programmed the entire thing without using a method, which I found out was illegal (soo hurrah to that) and I felt so bad that I couldn't figure it out and everyone around me was able to do it and I felt so completely pathetic it was awful.

I almost had it, kind of, except the Jeroo wouldn't stop running through the loop and it would turn around and not finish the entire maze, which didn't make any sense to me because I had programmed it so that it wouldn't do that? I don't really know, I just know that it was too stressful for me. MAHYN.

So I haven't checked Gradespeed at all this six weeks which is when I realized that I haven't done any blog posts and I just thought "wow ok i suck obvs" because I am incapable of doing these or something. And I'm pretty sure at this point, the grading system is, if you don't do it a week or something after it's due then it's a zero which sucks but WHAT CAN YOU DO.

Well this is interesting, I will have to talk about the last few weeks of my life.

I really like Jeroo even though I don't think I'm that good at it but I get REALLY EXCITED WHEN I DO SOMETHING RIGHT AND OMG I GET IT, it's just kinda the best ok.

And I didn't finish to Lab 5A whoops, I don't even know what to do about that, probably just sit and cry in my closet and drink myself into a coma

That was a joke btw I don't do that.

Sometimes I look at my grades and laugh because I don't remember it being so awful, like at least last year there was just one class I struggled with and all the others I did fairly well and this year it's just like WHOOPS WELL THERE THEY GO and ugh oh well.

Oh well is my answer to pretty much everything.

Except Christmas because best time of year lbr.

(that means let's be real...im hip)

I decided that I'm going to attempt getting only books for people or something because I think it will be really hard to do, but I forgot how much I love reading and I just want to give good books to people. It would be sweet.

I was supposed to college this weekend but looks like that didn't happen

Oh but the Trail of Lights is THURSDAY I'm going to cry I love the TOL OK

Oh ok, more about computer programming: At first I did not like the coding stuff (if you can call it that) but now I'm digging it I really just want to learn how to html some things so I can change my theme around on Tumblr, I have things in perspective you know. Not really.

I also decided that there needs to be a "how to become a pro in photoshop class" because i would sign up for that first choice i want to be pro but ugh it's so hard to sit down and learn.

This is the first time I've ever not been able to eat while watching American Horror Story...well done on that one...I'm impressed.

I'm not really sure what we were supposed to turn in, in Computer Programming like I'm failing and I'm not sure why. I wasn't there yesterday, but I thought I had done all my blog posts, I did them weekly and I turned in the project we did in class.

I don't like how class is going right now. I liked the first six weeks where things made more sense and I'm so stressed with other classes, and then this class?? I didn't want it to be like this and I don't even understand HOW.

This and art.

Everything is so annoying.

Ridiculously annoying.

It's really late and I'm watching NYC Prep for some reason and working on filling out applications (something I'm finally doing hooray). I don't really know why I'm watching this show, it's like the real housewives but worse because everyone is 15-18 and pretentious rich assholes. It's refreshing to know these people actually exist.

Anyway, COMPUTER PROGRAMMING. We took a benchmark this past week and I did horrible on it. Which is depressing, not too much, but I realized I had no idea what it was even talking about and I couldn't even b.s. my way through the short answer section because I didn't even know what it was asking me. That was interesting.

We are getting into the more gritty programming, coding, whatever part of the class and I'm nervous because I already know I'm not going to understand much. I'm crossing my fingers it will be ok though. Hopefully it won't be as bad as I'm making it out to be.

Tbh, I keep getting distracted by this episode. PC (18) is helping out Taylor who is 15 get into the higher class social scene and get invited to ALL THE AMAZING EVENTS and it is causing some tension between friend groups. Very scandalous.

It's so pathetic how I'm sucked into this. Oh well. I like the drama.

Also their parties are very high class in nice apartments and they sit on couches and talk about relationships. I would like to attend one of these cause the ones I go to seem very immature compared to these like GEEZ!

But then again I'm like older than all these people.

I was out like...all of last week, so idk really what was going on in class. I did go back and review everything we had went over and then do the assignments we had to answer though. It's just kinda weird coming back to school and having no idea whats going on. Because a week is...long, and coming to school on Friday I had no idea what was happening. It was just a big blur. So that was fun.

This project has been tedious just because the Photoshop I was using at my house is really slow since my brother has put like 50 viruses this past year on my dad's computer (which is the only one with Photoshop in the house besides my laptop...that still needs the charger replaced) and having that opened and the internet made it crash a few times. Even though my dad said he's done everything to clean the computer it's still ridiculously slow. Yet, my brother still insists on downloading stupid Minecraft skins from random sites because he's in sixth grade and doesn't understand what the blue screen of death is. He just turns off the computer and walks away, waiting to blame it on someone else.

But yeah, it took forever to do anything because everything was very much slow. And, I'm not a huge Photoshop person, cause the last time I worked with it, was about two years ago and meh I just don't care enough to try to learn it (This you can tell from seeing my edit, but whatcanyado).

Generally everything is bland at the moment...hooray. School has turned into my favorite thing possibly ever and I'm really on top of all my classes and make up work and college and essays and interviews and I hate everything.


Good thing I'm taking a year off....

Same.